Tuesday, April 10, 2012

everything and nothing

I have been struggling trying to get a post on here the last few weeks... I have so much going thru my head and so much to talk about ...

but nothing that I can actually form into words. 
I sit and the next thing I know 10minutes has passed...
I have so many words in my head, emotions in my heart and head but nothing can come out
I tried to talk to Sam's doctor last week and felt I was met with "oh that is typical teenage behaviour" but maybe it is just me ... 
maybe I am just
 ... everything and nothing...
I have tried to explain things to Dennis but cant find the words either. 
tears I have many...
headaches too many to count...

I wonder if things are getting to where they are going to be and now I am just 'coming down' off the life we have been living the last almost 4 years...
I am not sure 
I am not sure about much these days

I feel just so everything and nothing....


1 comment:

Caregiver said...

I have missed you. It has been a long 4 years. It has been a long 7 years for us. I think denial and reality converge, wax and wane like the moon. hang in there my friend. Please message me if you like. On Saturday I have unlimited calling to Canada. So we can talk if you wish. Hang in there dear caring friend, mom, wife and daughter. Love gin